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25 July 2009 @ 01:05 am
try to find out what makes you tick / as I lie down soaring sick  
Hey people who've played other Shin Megami Tensei games, riddle me this. Does the nameless male main character guy always have short blue hair and always seemed spaced out and always wear headphones? 'Cause in P3, Minato's like that. And in Devil Survivor, guy-with-no-canon-name-yet has these...weird headphones. That either 1) look like devil horns or 2) cat ears, which leads to his nickname of "nekomimi" in Japanese fandom. But yeah, just wondering if this is an SMT tradition or something.

Buuuuuuuuut I wish more of you knew Devil Survivor. It's a really intriguing game and I like all the characters (O_o) and and. And yeah. Totally drawing more for this series. Maybe. If I draw. Still can't motivate myself to practice, and I dunno if I'm just limiting myself to animanga style, either...also mom wants me to sign up for this painting class, so I guess I need to stop with animanga for now.

I have seen instances of at least five character traits of mine that I really, really hate today, and I don't have the strength to change a single one of them. I utterly fail at life. Also broke out into a huge rant about my internship which my parents patiently listened to (my dad was all "how about I take you out to lunch one day and I go talk to your editors?" me: *shudder* "maybe not."). Still. I just...I just want...christ. Meanwhile everyone else back at uni will be all "yeah, I interned, yeah, my stuff got on the front page, yeah, it was awesome"...yay lack of resume building amongst genius overachievers whom I don't belong with.

Also need to transfer my mood theme to photobucket as I can't see them. Thank you (re: fuck you) China. Must be something with the ethnic unrest, I guess.

There's also some kind of anime exhibition (not "convention," apparently) here right now, so we're going tomorrow. I'll stay positive about it. Also found out today that my brother watches anime and reads manga, some of the series which are my favorites also. ...I just went, "... ." Couldn't believe it. Dunno why, really. It's just...I've never seen these habits of his, I guess?

............You learn something new every day. 8D;;;;
our hopes and expectations: discontentdiscontent
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Raerae00 on July 24th, 2009 07:38 pm (UTC)
Nice pic. :o
And I wish I could answer, but the only ones I've played are P3 and Devil Survivor too. I want to play P4, but I'm not about to ask my parents to spend money on it. Oh well.

You don't belong with genius overachievers, no. Not because you can't match up to them but because it's not in you to discard everything else you are in order to do so.
Live your life. Stop trying to live other people's lives. They are no better off.

Hahahaha. Does he like some of the same chars you do?
a regular decorated emergency.: SH - band togetherdarkenedsakura on July 25th, 2009 03:36 am (UTC)
Heh, thanks. Good to see that my stuff can still turn out decent. And mmn, yeah, same. Well, I'll probably get it when I return to the states and can use money from my work/study again, but.

I dunno...when I think about it, I don't have that much in my life that I'd be discarding. My escapism? My not-really-existant social life? My still-not-as-existant close ties with my family? For all the "I can't devote myself 18/7 to my job" talk I spew, there's not much else going on for me.

Haven't asked. The first series he named were Clannad, Black Lagoon, Suzumiya Haruhi, and Naruto. I have to admit that he has some taste. >_>

And in response to your comment on your now deleted post (stop doing that 8D): but you say things, and I'm sure you've noticed that almost no one else ever does. Irl it's about the same, but if I mention things to one or two people, they'd, you know, have to reply. I know it's my fault because I make it so that no one ever knows what to say, though... And it's not because you're giving useless answers, but because I'm not capable of doing anything with them or changing anything.
Raerae00 on July 25th, 2009 10:15 am (UTC)

*shrugs simply* What do you want?


Thanks, I think.
a regular decorated emergency.: Yuuki - up those spiraled stairsdarkenedsakura on July 25th, 2009 01:03 pm (UTC)
I think what I want is an impossibility. Maybe it means I secretly want to be miserable. Maybe I should just stop talking about it here...but I can't help it. Awful habit, or tendency, or something.

Dunno if he knows FSN. At the very least I'm sure he doesn't know the game. Yes. >_____>

Haha, it's okay even if you don't.
Raerae00 on July 25th, 2009 06:31 pm (UTC)
Which isn't the answer. Ah well. Tell me on MSN sometime, ya?

............."Yes" -> Yet.

Mm? Even if I don't...?
a regular decorated emergency.: Inaradarkenedsakura on July 26th, 2009 02:55 am (UTC)
It is, because nothing else makes sense, other than how I'm just frustratingly unsatisfied by anything. Eh, could try over MSN, but I dunno how it could get articulated any differently.

...We'll see.

"Thanks, I think" -> even if you don't think so, I guess I was trying to say.
Raerae00 on July 26th, 2009 03:44 am (UTC)
*shrugs* Ditto, to some extent. Escapism FTW.


Mm. Nah. Thanks. The "I think" was a distant relative of "I wish this was easier for you."
a regular decorated emergency.: in the darkdarkenedsakura on July 26th, 2009 04:23 am (UTC)
For sure. :D (sidenote: why is Gin's face/hair so hard to freaking draw, stupid realistic hairstyle aksdgj)

Haha, I just don't want to imagine him playing the game. 8D I'm still surprised about how he apparently watches things, though...I've never seen him watch a single second of anything, unless he's watching over my shoulder. Dunno why this is still so weird. XD

Eh, ah well. My turn to say thanks? *laughs*
Raerae00 on July 26th, 2009 04:44 am (UTC)

Huh...Well, if you don't know, I really dunno. 8D